How I feel

For the whole of yesterday afternoon, I felt a little depressed.

Sure, I felt happy for those who did better than they expected, who got that so called 'miraculous' C6 for English, or a B3 for Maths when they have failed every single time prior to that. I felt happy that these students have finally completed a huge step in their life, and that is their secondary school life.

At the same time, I felt morose. These students have come and left. I took over some of the classes only in July, and I am depressed that I couldn't have made a bigger impact. Hopefully I have left some footprints in their hearts. People always say -The teacher might not always remember the students, but the students will always remember a good teacher. Hopefully I have not wasted everyone's time.

I felt depressed because I saw many people crying when I was seated there giving out results. From the body postures it seems as if they were tears of sorrow rather than tears of happiness.

I felt depressed because some of the students studied hard and did not get the results they aimed for.

I felt depressed because some of the students did not study at all, and only upon receiving those results did they start to regret how it could have been.

I felt depressed because I don't undestand why students nowadays can party or play for 3-4.5 years and then start studying in September and think that they will do well.

My mother taught me well. 早知今日， 何必当初？ Think ahead. Plan.

Anyway, that was yesterday afternoon.

It's a brand new day.

Embrace it. =)